Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Sundays are my favorite days. I cherish them, anticipate them and relish them. LOL, but truly they feed my soul. I sleep in, go to church at eleven, which is always nice. And then... then I have the whole afternoon to myself. I can do whatever I want and go wherever I feel. Its lovely. And I always buy lunch/dinner. Last Sunday I went to this little hole-in-the-wall and had juevos rancheros. God, I love juevos rancheros. Mmmmm... Usually I end up going to a coffeeshop. I sit there leisurely and read and listen to music. I just got these great new headphones because Izzy chewed my old ones. They are so comfy and block out all other sound. So I choose the soundtrack for my afternoon and sit in anonymity and think, ponder, dream... And because I cannot hear I feel separated from the world. I am the transcendent spectator, invincible and untouchable. I am alone in a world of imagination and possibility and freedom. Sigh. Just thinking about it my soul soars. LOL, I am so quixotic and melodramatic. I have a new favorite spot in Borders. There is this huge window with a window seat on the second floor overlooking the street, so I look out the mountains or people watch until well after the sun has set. And then I go home and watch Grey's Anatomy with my roomie. And that is why Sundays are my favorite days. Crap, its only Wednesday. Four days of stress and finals to go.... Bleh.

Friday, March 03, 2006

You are the Lord our God, who brought your people out of Egypt so that they would no longer be slaves; You broke the bars of their yoke and enabled them to walk with heads held high.
Leviticus 26.13

Come to me all you who are weary and carrying heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me; for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.
Matthew 11.28-30

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Sorry for the delay. I am so sick of thinking and talking about my brother... So if I haven't called you or talked to you about it, sorry. It is kind of exhausting, but its seems like I cannot stop thinking about him. But it would be sad if I could just forget about my brother on command. So he pled guilty to a misdemeanor and is getting out of jail next week, which scares me. He will basically be homeless and I have no idea what he will do. As part of his parole, the court ordered him to report to the Dept. of Behavorial Health and enroll in their program. I doubt he will do it. I mean, he ended up in jail because he didn't want to get help. So, that's it. I still feel churned up and am beginning to wonder whether I am just grieving or clinically depressed.

On to happier things, my mom and I went to see Curious George after the trial to distract ourselves. You should know that I have been a Curious George fan since high school, so my opinion may be biased. It was great! I am absolutely smitten with George! He was adorable and made the cutest faces! And I usually don't like cartoons, but its a winner. I have already decided to buy it.

I visited my grandma, Omi, last week. She is fabulous - one of my favorite people. We went to see Something New with Sanaa Lathan (Brown Sugar, Love and Basketball). It was neat to see the struggles of an interracial couple. I have always been intimidated by inter-cultural relationships. It would be so difficult, but nobody ever talks about how to deal with it or how it can be great. Still in the end, the movie was just a cute chick flick.

I am giving up sugar for Lent. What am I thinking? Let's see if I can do it. I tried once in undergrad and only made to day twenty.

Guess what? Wait, first I have to give you background. 1) I never pray (well, more as of late, but usually, never). 2) I can sleep forever and through anything. So, Guess what? On Monday morning, God woke me up at 6:30AM to pray!!! I know! It was cool. I just woke up, and thought, "I need to get up and talk to God." That should have started my post.